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| Wow, it only seemed like yesterday that i was writing all about this blog...i cant notice but wonder on what the hell happened to those days where I'd spend at least a good hour to write on this thing... so yeah! the actual last time that i wrote on this was way way back! now that I look back at it, those times were fun as well! I mean seriously, it brought me back to the good old days that i would just sit here on MSN and chat to people and just chillax! but as time goes on things change as well! i mean with myself! and other thing around. I'm still in college! funnily enough... Well the main point on me writing on this again is to just enter another chapter or episode in my life.... since i havn't written on this blog in a long time, this will be a long-ass story!Chapter 1: TimeAs time passed us by, the old group got stronger, there has been the odd tweaks and feuds between us...but its all good because we are a strong group of friends! this was at about summer of 2007 July... this was the verge of the dynamic trioness which consisted of Myself, Alex and Danielle! we were always together. as in every single moment of us having free lessons, it was spent on each other's accompany. we promised each other that nothing would come on in between of us! because we absolutely loved each other! and at this time we also promised each other that when college has finished we would always go to each other's houses and just hang out like in college times. and never to lose contact with each other. the sad thing though is that we only kept one of those promise! which was to keep in touch with each other, i mean, me and Danielle could understand that we cant see each other everyday because once Alex has left college he started to work, so i thought it was acceptable. This made me sad because at about this time as well we found out that Danielle's parents wanted to move to Australia... naturally me and Alex were upset and would do anything to spend time with her. This information didn't help with the things i was feeling as well because of my Sis Leaving the country for Australia!CURSED AUSTRALIA! so yeah this actually had a bog impact on me because my sis is like the sister i never had! we've been there for each other in sadness and happiness! months has passed before me and and my sis would talk to one another which is depressing because we spoke to each other on the phone ever since we because soooo close! so i thought overall July was a really sad month for me! it didnt last though because i think i'll only ruin my holiday if im being all emo!
Chapter 2: Holiday
Holiday time now came along! which for me was quite awesome! at this time I've already started to grow my hair! i know weird right, unfortunately, i lost a bet and i don't even remember what the bet was about actually! so at this time the old group from college! went their own separate ways, Amy just stayed at home, Stace worked, Jo i didn't know what the hell she was doing, Danielle she was going out working every night as a taxi dispatch lady. Alex had a full time job and there's me just mooching around at home or at town on on Southend at Chris's place, it was awesome because I'm out everyday just doing nothing, another reason that this was fun is because that i forgot about my worries and problems it was all relaxed, because I wanted to make the most of it before college once starts again this will all be hectic once started! Nothing major really happened at this time! usually when things happen life changing things it will be, though the things is I've forgotten that my sis has left and that I'm sad about that and that Danielle is leaving and h'm sad about that as well. although this was a very happy month for me something made me reflect on it all and i got even more depressed because i remembered our promise to one another that we well see each other every free time we had, buy sadly that never happened.... this is the problem with friends We all say that we'll do this! but when it comes to planning it, it never happens! all the time that we could have spent together, it was just nothing, only chatting online tied us together! and that only happened one or twice at most! So even after a happy month it all turns to the darker sadder side of things somehow and that's what I've learned.
Chapter 3: Beginning
College has started, a new beginning new people and new faces! also new people! it was pretty much the same as last year but now we are starting with out Alex in our group. with this at least a good thing will come, to myself i thought that our group would get much stronger. New people came along the group! not everyone agreed with letting the newbies sit with us! as always me and Danielle were the only people who were open minded on letting the new people in to our friendship group! at first it was all OK and happy with the group but its the lack of trust in other which brought some of the people down! This created tension with everyone else! at about this time i broke out to the pressure and i couldn't take it so I left and started hanging around with other people...So much for the group not splitting up, but in the other hand, i wasn't a every important part of the group so i thought. I started hanging out with Karl, James and Stacie! they are sooo cool! Karl and James are like my two bodyguards the are the hench people that was in my class, gentle giants if you will, and there was Stacie my dancing buddy everytime we hear danbce tunes we'd just bust a move! because we are cool like that ahhaha! that kept on going for the next few weeks, after this I introduced the two groups together as usual only one person was thrilled about this! and guess who it was :P... I'm happy that At least one person is really open and has no problem taking in other people to be friends with, at long last i was re-united with the old group, although you can never take away the tension between other people, happiness was surely present in the room, a room called the blue room!
                To Be Continued!
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| well pointing out the ovious but... im ill today!!! i mean super ill, i sound like a god damn frigging frog for fuck sake...well it is partly my fault, it all started last saturday, because u see last saturday it was very nice and warm outside. so i decided to have a game of basketball... wht i didnt know whs that is was gonna get me injured and get me ill...because i know i havnt been playing basketball for qute a while with all my injuries and all that, i kinda got unfit to play basketball mentioning this bacause when it comes to basketball im an addict I can last a minimum time of 3 hours of playing basketball non stop,while this game only lasted me about 45mins b4 i my chest started acting up and all that. When i got home i was feeling all good and all, but the pain kiciked in the next morning. my legs hurt my body is heavy and everything else, is not working quite well... the illness thing only kicked in yesterday. the pounding headache was dreadfull. lolz in college, OH GOD WHERE DO I START¬.¬ al my teacher were being propper nini bitches that need to suck it, i mean it quite badly... i only had one piece of tiny tiny tiny tiny work to get on with and all, every time i tryed to give in my work my teacher (not mentioning any names!) *cough* FUCKING SARAN!!!!!! *cough* wont accept the work i tryed to give in, keeps on saying its not good enough when its blatently what she asked me for... this somehow led me to punching the wall several times and getting throwns out of my maths lesson having being told dont bother coming back to the next few lessons... well if they dont want me in the they could fucking screw it...i jst wanted to let out awll my angre because i ant hit the indy kid i wanted to fight sooo badly, heheheheh on the good side all my work for science has already finished so i dont have to see anymore of my scince teachers faces til who the fuck cares!! hahahha sooo im just gonna come to college to mess around and do english work and nothing else. hahahah thths all thts all for my retarded day called major suckage! CiAo! JaZz... | | |
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today was just another one of those days that you would rather have spent sleeping somewhere but TGIF!!! anyways...today i had sooo sooo much to be thankfull for! like me not being able to wake up in time "THNKS ALARM CLOCK FOR YOUR USELESSNNESS!! REMIND ME TO THROW YOU AWAY" (sarcasm) and for my college work its nearly done! i have a grand total of 3 criterias left, thts quite good... i mean i'v had less breaks lately coz of that damn work... well TBH i was on a constant break starting on september... i think thts one of the main problems about me, i done seem to take alot of things seriously because of wht i always think to my self that being serious all the time could kill you! hahahha sound stupid right... deep inside my mind i think im all stressed out, i stress easy thts why i could easily lose my temper and end up hurting my self (no not in the EMO kind of way) by punching the walls and stuff, another habbit of mine that i could not avoid... when i was talking to my best friend last night "SIS" she told me that i need ti ligthen up a bit...try to calm down a bit, at first i dunno wht she was talkin about, the the phrase Settle Down came... at that very moment it came to me each and every thing she tryed to tell me, when i asked to to make sure she told me that i should stop with the whole "not dating thing" i guess shes kinda right about that...she gave me another 1HOUR LECTURE about how important it is to have someone next to you, someone you could share emotions with. yeash yeash i know, shes KORNY, i think she infected me with it but i LURVE her to bits! :P shes afraid that im stuck in the memory of a girl that i somehow liked but never really bothered doing anything... at the end of all of it, she told me that i would die young with out it... tht scared me! hahahah ¬.¬ Today in college was prety intrsting...from stupidly annoying to stupidly funny...nothing much its just the simple things like. BEN (pigeon man) banging his head on the CHAIR!!! tht was really stupid! i think thts just a goodbye stunt coz i think its his last day here til he goes to his week off b4 exams thing... which leads me to another thing all the AS level people has theor last day today,,, and will not be coming to college next week, it woudnt be as much fun w/o Ameh, Jo, Danneh & Stace but atlease no1 will be poking, hitting, messing up my hair and stealing the ring... for quite i while, i think i'll miss tht! hahaha PSYKE!!! Jazz out! CiAo! JaZz... | | |
| For me waking up EveryHour since 1am lst nyt could only mean one thing! crazy day ahead... reason being, it all started last night at about 10pm i foned up my GIRL bestest bestest friend whom i call "SIS" i called her lst night because i havn't had a chance to talk to her! the worst thing about it was she said i forgot to call her durng her BIRTHDAY!... I mean her birthday was a few days ago MAY 9th "preaty easy to remember because its 8 days after my birthday and all tht... for 1hour i had to listen to her moan at me for not calling her and every thing... i didnt even forget about it, i tryed to call her exactly 10 times, the worst things is the guilt trip into all of these, because at night of my birthday (exactly 12.30am b4 Danielle TxTd me to greet "thnx DANNEH!") she rang me on my CP, i was shocked because the last time i checked she was in Phillipines... tht really was one of the best surprises tht was given to me :P... i mean the guilt trip is killing me for all i know, hence me not being able to sleep verywell (i hated not being able to sleep (¬.¬) the day started all good and quiet... the normal time at the bus stop..bus picks us up and off we go...but today was different, on the bus i WASN'T able to sit next to Danielle,,, in that state of mind not being able to talk i got into my usual habbit of DAZING! during the time when the bus left my stop til the time we arrived to college, I was able to think of things tht i rarely ever think about like WASHING UP LIQUID! i know...wierd right... and another thing that happened in the past, kind of a childhood memory...i remember as a kid walking to the bus stop waiting for my school service to arive...i remember being in a state of blank minded thinking, somehow while in tht state, i forgot to get on the bus and be late for school... i thought to my self, "well nothing much has changed about my personality from 7 years ago"... at that moment i had a quiet swearing at my self moment "hah! what an IDIOT!, nothing much has changed then". all this time i'v been stressing out about my college work, and not being able to do wht my mind desires... "memories from the long lost home" hahahha, i know sound kinda korny and all that but, not everyday you get to reflect on wht u did back then, wht u miss... basically just a little time for your self to give out... This infact is when i rememberd that JAMES "BANDANA MAN thts now BANDANA-LESS" isn't going to be in college... its really annoying coz with everybody i hang around with he is the STUPIDLY ULTIMATE GOOFBALL! the type that would make you laugh even at just one stare, today i had to do his Job of annoying amy by poking her in the rib making her scream wierd noises,,, sooo funny tho!... in college nothing much happened exept our daily habbit of being totally random, by taking random pictures of random things "i mean, i have the friggin college ceiling as my CP wallpaper RANDOMNESS!!!!!" and our daily game of pool, i'v been talking to danielle at the start of 6th lesson, she said tht shes lost the game she played with Jo or Stace, not really sure who :P...then we decided to play a little two on two match agaist the two of them Jo and Stace... I dont like to gloat but this is a gloating moment for me... i putted the white ball probably a bajillion times which gave them 2 free shots each... the the team of me and Danielle still beat those two HEHEHE! SUCKERS! another crazy thing tht happened to day was relating Alex, the new bending machine, 80p and me! hahah...its basically me buying a Choc milk shake and drinking it in front of alex...hahahha i think alex was jelous of me beng able to buy some and him not having any money to buy it...the look on alex's face when i was teasing him with the chocmilk! PRICELESS!!! well thts the update today! catch u tommorow! or whenever i could be bother to write some more! CiAo! JaZz... | | |
| WhooHoo!!!! First entry for the blog! to start it off, i dunno what to actually say... i shall start by saying how boring the day for me has been... for the next few days my schedule is going to be f***ing HECTIC! this is all beacuse on the college work! yeash COLLEGE WORK! im not usually the kind of person that likes to go on and on and ON about my day but this is exeptional. I must admit this day hasnt been all bad, a few good things happened aswell, like free lessons! GOD BLESS FREE LESSONS! yep its kinda good :P during the last free lesson of the day we had actually F**K all to do we just kept on messing around in the usual hang out place (BLUEROOM) its not actually blue but i think it used to be... but hey who gives a damn. Gonna tell a little bit about my self, im not the usual kind of guy that makes weblogs like this, thix is just for the time to waste... this is somesort of time wasting thingy! ehehehe xD i'l just go ON and ON and ON and ON about things you would not even dare or going onto so enjoy the FIRST ENTRY!!! and i know you are just going to get sucked into the wierd place inside my head :P (this line was taken from a song By Linkin Park) until nest time, CiAo! JaZz | | |
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